haha weird, I thought I hated the twilight series. I actually watched all the movies..
well, things change, people change. I change my mind many times. CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE.
never liked to embrace the changes in me and around me. But we have to face it don't we?

note-to-self: here comes the briefcase filled with what seemed to be happiness , deal or no deal? DEAL!
i've been such an idiot, but then again, no point beating myself up about it.

oh sidetrack, reason why i'm posting (and i foresee tt I will be posting more often in the coming weeks) is  because much has gathered in the dark recesses of the ol' cupboard and spring cleaning is the way to sanity :)

God has really been pouring out words and visions and lessons (painful ones) and more and I know I'm progressing but I think I have forgotten how to strike the balance between being a superonfirechristianwhowillstopatnothingtosaveherschool (congrats if you deciphered that) and a genuine friend.

Faith Koh helped me to realise that and I believe it was not by coincidence , I guess Holy Spirit wanted me to learn the hard way, but then again, no pain, no gain :D

I have been pondering a lot even more than when I PMS. Often drift into a highly temperamental state whereby anyone who disrupts my train of thought gets a tongue lashing. Apologies :( I have al;ready beaten myself up in my mind for that. But really praise God things are getting better. Relationships have been restored and I'm moving into a new phase of life.

Being a friend has never been so tough. It used to be something so natural , like breathing. But now it seems like I just came back to earth from Mars, no, i correct myself : Venus. (men are from mars)

OOOO to relieve this tense moment, i shall share a testimonyyyy:

Mrs Lam (my form teacher) had to go for a major operation (she refused to let us in on any more details ) so everyone in 4L wrote our get-well-soons and i-will-study-hards and etc. But I felt that I needed to pray for her , so I wrote a prayer for Mrs Lam with the paraphrased verse : " By his stripes, you will be healed".

Today, Clara forwarded me this msg from mrs lam :

 last night (i think its the night of the operation)i  visited hell and came back alive. I remember your prayer for me so I keep on remembering the bible verse and won the battle, I was like in non stop roller coaster that never stop ,fever and blood pressure up and down, thk you.


when i read it , i was at plaza sing and I was literally jumping and flapping my arms. PTL! really , it's the power of the word .FYI mrs lam is not a Christian YET!

YAYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry still super happy! It makes me happy when God does something amazing (actually happy is an understatement )

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forgot to mention today's highlight:
in case you haven't noticed already, I watched eclipse for the second time with Rachel :D It was funny, we giggled at the wrong parts and sometimes we laughed because the people beside us were laughing haha. The person beside me spilled coke on my skirt LOL.  It was funny trying to clean my skirt in the middle of the movie , in the dark.

It's a but weird, but I admit, I do face some of the problems she faces.  I will hand lady pride (well there's lady happy, lady peaceful and lady luck, why not lady pride?) the pink slip.

YAY it's midnight. it's fun to blog in the middle of the night :D

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I managed to survive sch despite watching world cup. Devastated that Germany lost :( leads me to the assumption that someone paid Germany to lose :((((
It's okay i will still support them (despite losing 2 bucks and maybe a cookie which i totally did not agree to bet on)

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my rants shall cease here.

% of cupboard cleared : 5
% of cupboard left : 95